You may have noticed...

...that I haven't blogged in a while. There has been too much going on that I didn't feel right about blogging about, so I haven't. I will give you an abbreviated version of everything that has happened in the last month...

We found a new awesome place in Culver City, we rented it, we moved in, we love it! I have more space to practice, entertain, etc. I also have my own washer/dryer!!!! Now I can tell my grandma that I don't share laundry with 10 other people. She was not a fan of that! We also have two parking spots and Jared can walk to work! I am just trying to get used to driving more now that I have to commute to teaching down south. But no biggie, only 3 days a week! Just an adjustment.

Our good friends have canceled their wedding. We are dealing with all that comes with that. One was living with us, and now the other is. Trying to figure out how to be Jesus to both of them. We were friends with both and still are, so dealing with the complicated mess that it is. Wanting to fix it, but can't.

I am also frustrated that I haven't been able to practice and pursue flute related things recently because of all that is going on.

Because of all of these things, I am stressed. My body has not been this tense since college. I thought I had learned to let go of stress when I moved to Cali, but my body is telling me otherwise. Also, trying to get rid of stress is not easy! Playing the flute helps, even writing about it helps, and I am usually the type of person to say, hey I am just not going to be stressed, and I won't be anymore. However, I have not been able to do that this time. I have to move on with some of my goals bc they have been put on hold for over 2 weeks!

You know when you hear moms talking about taking care of their kids and not getting a break for themselves, that is how I feel right now, but without the kids part. I am learning that the world does not revolve around me, slowly, and that my personal goals and ambitions may not be what God has for me right now to pursue with all of my efforts. People are His first priority, and I am learning what that looks like. I don't think that God wants us to always put all of our dreams and goals on the back burner, but I think He is trying to show me how important people are to Him.

For now, deep breaths....
And pictures of the new place coming soon!